Goodbye World

I have probably said this 1000 times. I think I have S.A.D. If you don't know what that is, it isn't an STD or nasty viral infection....although I think I would actually prefer if it was. It is in fact this altered state of mind that I can't seem to shake off. I wouldn't quite say that I am experiencing clinical depression and about to top myself...although I have often talked about the perfect way to committ suicide and feel quite happy with my choice should I need to use it.

The added stress of my dissertation hanging over my head is not helping either. I have about 3 weeks to complete it and couldn't be further from finishing. I have put more effort into drinking sessions than work. That may even be a sign of depression? the constant need to drink? or maybe i'm just your average 22 yr old male entering the busy christmas drinking season, who knows.

I can't believe it, i've wrote more in 5 minutes for my blog than I have done for my dissertation in two weeks. That has just made me even more depressed. And reading back on this post....it sounds fucking depressing.

Don't worry, this isn't a cry for help, althought if it was it would probably be very similar, lol. I hope this hasn't depressed anyone else who reads it.

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